Here I embark on my writing journey once more, determined to create a successful blog. Years ago, I had cultivated a rewarding blog page that garnered several followers and allowed me to share my life experiences with a wider audience. However, I felt compelled to abandon that page. I had delved into my childhood, recounting the trauma I endured and the individuals responsible for it. Ironically, when I began sharing my truth, it didn’t align well with certain people, leading to intense anger. They were furious that the world might witness the truth, exposing their desires to be concealed.
I was overwhelmed with anger, threats, and constant harassment while pregnant (having just lost a baby before that pregnancy), fighting a custody battle for the well-being of my older daughter, and just beginning my marriage to my husband. It was simply too much to bear. I needed to step away from everything and focus on the tiny life growing inside me. I needed to prioritize calmness and maintaining a healthy body that my baby could thrive in. I needed to rediscover myself and build the kind of marriage I wanted my children to be proud of.
I’m delighted to share that my little rainbow baby will soon turn seven, and I’ve never met a calmer and more self-aware child. My husband and I are closer and more connected than ever, and our relationship has been going strong for almost a decade. Similarly, my daughter has grown stronger and happier than ever before. While I’m saddened that I had to let go of that chapter and a part of myself, I have no regrets. My little family deserved a better version of me, and I deserved a better version of myself as well. However, I’m ready now. I’m ready to start anew.
One of my favorite quotes is the source of this page’s title, and I often repeat it to myself when I navigate the ever-changing and sometimes harsh realities of life. It says, “There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under heaven: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.”
I’ve been silent for a while now, but it’s time to speak again. I’ve been through a lot, and I’ve come out stronger on the other side. I’ve shed all the tears and am now spending more time laughing. I’ve been through war, and it’s time for peace.
That doesn’t mean I won’t write as honestly as I did before. It just means I won’t let how my writing might affect others’ feelings impact my peace anymore. I write to release. I release the old, set free the things that weigh on my soul, so I can take a deep breath in the now. I can fill up that open space with laughter and untarnished memories. I can let go.
That’s what this page will be for me. A place to release everything. Let it be heard. Let it be free. So I can fill up all that newly vacant space with PEACE.
A Time For Peace 