God Does Bless The Broken Roads!

Have you ever wished you could go back and talk to your younger self? Like, maybe your 20-something self? Just to say, ‘Hey, hang on, it gets better!’ I’ve thought about it a lot. I felt so lost during those years of my life. I often hear people say that their twenties were the best years of their lives, but I’m here to tell you, that wasn’t true for me. In fact, I didn’t even know who I was as a woman or what I needed in a man until I was well into my thirties! My twenties were filled with heartbreak, mistakes, loneliness, confusion, and feelings of hopelessness. I was lost, and I was searching for love and acceptance in all the wrong places. And to make matters worse, I didn’t have strong family connections to lean on during those years… but that’s a story for another time. Needless to say, I was wobbling around life like a newborn calf trying to find my footing. It wasn’t pretty. But then, I gave birth to my daughter in my twenties, and she saved my life in more ways than she could ever know. Her birth was the highlight of my life during those tough times. Having a daughter quickly made me realize the responsibility I had for showing her healthy relationships and also how much I was failing at that. It was a long, lonely, and heartbreaking journey to find my way to where and who I am now. So, I’ve often thought about what I would say to myself during those long nights I spent crying and praying for something better for us both. I decided to write to her (see below). To tell her everything I wish I knew then. To let her know that sometimes, God does bless the broken roads!

All the nights you go to bed alone… It won’t be forever

All the times you feel unloveable, broken, and like you will never find peace… Your peace is coming, and he will show you that you are more than lovable, and not nearly as broken as you think.

All the day dreams you live in where you find someone that loves you like you need to be loved… hang on to those dreams, they do come true.

All the times you feel rejected, and ashamed… those feelings will be a distant memory soon.

All the times you tell yourself “there has be something better than this”… there is, and he is coming!

When you least expect him, and in the very moment you give up on those dreams, he will come.

He will be unexpected, and wild. He will make you feel a little crazy, and you will question everything you thought you knew about your life in that moment.

He will heal things in you that you didn’t even realize were broken. He will make your soul happy.

Just hang on, he is coming.

He will love you in a way that doesn’t make sense to you. A way you have never been loved. It will scare you.

He will be your safe place. Your peace, and all the things you’ve been searching for. He will complete you, and fill the holes in your heart that were left by others.

Don’t push him away, he is coming.

His touch will cleanse you of all the rejection and shame. It will make you know that you are worthy.

He will tell you that you are beautiful, and leave you no choice but to believe him. You will speak to him, and know you are finally heard.

Be open to his love, he is coming.

He will be the perfect amount of sugar and spice. He will know when to love you tenderly, and when you need the tougher side of him. He will make you fall in love with both.

He will look at you, and you will see yourself in his soul. You will know that you have found your person. He will show you how all your broken pieces fit perfectly together with his. Like a puzzle made so that only he would fit.

Get ready, he is coming.

Everything you prayed for, the family you dreamed of, the life you imagined, the acceptance you are seeking, it is coming. He is coming, and bringing a love with him like you have never known. Hang in there. Don’t give up. don’t lose too much of yourself while waiting. Let him in. Let him see you. All of you. Let him love you, and lead you. Let him heal you!